Chapter 1.

We laughed & Giggled in That place That held our Dreams Far away from The Real World .. The World that killed me From inside , My Father Hated Me he never Cared .. All he is Good At Shouting in the hallways!

I was all alone in that Dark room, there was No Friend just Me myself And I..

But I Was Too happy to let Go of this dream..

Too scared to open my eyes..

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My Thoughts has Been Squashed as My father yelled Words that killed me , Killed me Alive ..

" YOU ARE NOT MY DAUGHTER , MY DAUGHTER DIED YEARS AGO!" He Shouted Reaching For my long Caramel Hair Which Was A Mess!!

"DAD PLEASE I DIDN'T CHEAT " I Yelled Between Cries , Tears were Pouring Down my Cheek Like A River that Never Stopped

"DON'T CALL ME "DAD" I'M NOT YOUR DAD , WHY WOULD YOU CHEAT , FSHLTEENI GDAM ELMADRASA ALLAH YA54K " He Shouted Slapping my face With His Strong Hand that felt like a metal,his Dark Eyes were filled with Anger!

I tried pulling his Hand Away but He Was Too Strong ..

"PLEASE LISTEN WALLAH I DIDN'T CHEAT " I Cried harder Staring At my Father that Never Got tired..


I could her my Mother from the other Side , Screaming and yelling begging to Stop!

He let Go of My Hair Causing Me To Fall down Hitting my Head on The Corner of The Wooden table , I Yelled in Pain! ,my head got hit on The Marble Floor that Felt like a rock.

"TFOO , ELSHRAH MO 3LEEKI 3LA OMK ELY MA RBTK" He shouted Slamming The Wooden Door Behind Him

"wallah I didn't cheat " I Cried harder .. The pain got Worse ,I held the back of my head When I Realized that it was Dripping Blood

it felt like The world Was Turning around ,I Could not Shout Then Everything went entirely Black!!!

I Couldn't open my Eyes, i couldnt breath, i couldnt even move!

I could Feel Soft hands Holding mine as I heard cries!

" why did you do this Khalid,why " she Cried with her Sweet tone
(Khalid is my father)

"His Daughter is in the hospital And he Disappears and All of this is  his Fault " she Cried , I Could Feel warm Tears Dripping Down on my hand

I Tried once Again To open my Eyes and hold Her hands tight calming her Down

Telling her that I was fine..

I'm Fine Mom Don't Cry please!
I wanted to yell out Those words but I was too weak for That..


Someone Suddenly opened The Door making it Hit The Wall..

"how is she doing?" he Said With his deep old Voice

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Flashbacks started hitting me , the flashbacks my father and Mother!

*Flashbacks*


I Was Playing with Fahad my Best freind Since Forever

"Yalla I'll be The princess and You'll be The Prince " I Said Happily putting a plastic Tiara on My Short wavy Caramel Hair

My Mom Came In..

" Seeta sweet heart Who are You Talking To?" She Asked Worrying Tapping her foot on the floor

Why Would She Be Worried There's Nothing To Worry About !

"Mommy what's Wrong can't You see fahad ? He is Right in front of me" I Yelled huffing with My childish Voice !


" Fahad don't be Sad she's kidding " I looked At Him, holding his Hands!
He Had A Sad Face On, His Hazel Eyes were filled with Sadness!!

"Seeta Don't make me loose my mind your father made me Lose part of it so Don't make me lose the other part" She Said talking Fast and walking Around the Room when She Does that, it means she's Really nervous and Depressed!

"sweetheart fahad left for more than a month now "

"Mamaaa he Is light (right )Hele (here) , He Waas leally (really) Sad that You Didn't leply (reply )To Him " I Said Pointing At Fahad , His hazel Eyes Were Gazing on The Ground in Sadness!

My Mother tried calming herself Down Sighing and Sat Down Next To Me Patting my back ..

"Hala Fahad Shloonak ? " She Said Looking In The Wrong Way

I Laughed At fahad " I'm Right Here " He Said Waving His Hand

I Pointed at fahad Once Again so She can See him welll not literally See him "Know where he is"

"Ohh Asfa Fahad Shloonk Enshallah zeen " She Said Shaking Her Soft Hand up & Down

Fahad Began To Shake His Hand with My mother , Smiling With Pride!


" What Did he say? You Know I'm An old women Now! " She Said Smiling At Fahad


"you not old! Your'e A Pletty(pretty) Young Lady , fahad's voice is just too Low he's really Shy!" I Said Laughing with my Childish voice holding my Stomach with my Little Hand!


"Yeah I'm telling the Truth your'e shyy " I Replied To Fahad Laughing Crossing my little hands over my Chest

"Stop fighting , what are you Fighting about?" My mother Questioned

" He's Voice is too Low he's So SHY" I Laughed making the Word *Shy* Longer.

" And what did he answer?" She Asked
Biting Her bottom ruby Pink Lip!

"He Said  I'm Not Shy just playing Along " As I imitated Fahad's Low Shy voice

My Mother Laughed Saying " Eee Wallah Yst7i shakla" She Winked

I Laughed At Fahad

fahad was an old childhood friend you see, then he moved to kuwait and never came back
as A child i guess i wass too attached to him that i Started imaging him..
 

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The tape of my life from the very first beginning till The end Was Shown right in front of my Eyes ..

Was I Going To Die ?
Was This The End ?

Once Again everything went Black !


I Slowly opened my Eyes To See White walls Surrounding Me , I Felt them getting Closer Ready to Squash Me!

I Closed my eyes , Clearing my Mind of Things Especially My So called Father..!! I Remembered Every word He Said , Every Move he Did

It killed me..

My own Father hit Me ! And he Didn't even Care enough To Visit ! Let's Say I'm used To his Shouting & His Cruel Words .. But he Never hit Me Not even Once..

I looked to my Right to find her Laying on The leather couch Covering her Face With her Soft Manicured hands , her Beautiful brown Eyes were Shut , She looked tired so I didn't want to Wake her Up..

I looked to My Left to see My Grandfather sitting on A black leather Chair he had his Eyes Shut ...

I love my Grandfather More Then Anything .. He is one of the people who Understands Me .. He wasn't only my Grandfather he Was My Father , my Best friend .. he Was one of Those understanding grandfathers..

My Grandmother Passed Away years Ago She had Cancer allah yr7mha ..

I Got Up From the hospital bed , Making my Way to the Bathroom with every step I get , I Feel Dizzy ...

I looked at Myself in The Big Mirror in the Bathroom .. I Was A Mess ..
The pain was getting worse as I touched the back of my head it looks like they Sewed it or something

With every Gentle Touch the pain Was Getting worse..

bruises were everywhere .. 

Suddenly I Heard Knock's on The Door

"Yes?" I Asked

I heard Sudden movements from the other Side .. Silence Filed The Air of the Hospital Room .

"Yes?" I Said once Again Wanting to know who is that person behind that Door!

" Seeta darling are you Okayy ?" He Asked

"GRANDPA" I Said opening The Door And Hugging him with all my Strength.. I Could See that he was Really Tired and Exhausted.

My mother was Still sleeping We Didn't want her To wake Up ..She Seemed really Tired..

I Finally got the Guts to Ask him after we sat down..

"Where's my father ?" I Asked facing my Grandfather his Smile started to fade his Brown Eyes were on The Ground!

"Where's My Father , please Grandpa tell me where is he ?! " I Repeated .. Running my hand Through my messy Caramel Hair , looking at Grandfather who looked disappointed And Angry..


He Sighed , finally facing me

He got up and Sat on The bed next to Me .. He putted his Hand on My Shoulder .. Playing with my hair !

I looked up At him and Gave him A weak Smile..

 My grandfather is The man I Always Looked up to.. 

Sometimes I Wished that he was My Father,I Loved him So much Words couldn't Describe my love to him although I'm not his oldest granddaughter, I never actually met my cousins from my mother's side !

He Sighed Saying " Your Father Got married "

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