The Unknown one Chapter 30

Previously on The Unknown one :

After a couple of months I still didn't Get over Seeta but I wished I did , one night we Got a surprisingly visit from her father asking my mother's hand in marriage and She agreed that's How i became Seeta's brother , that's how the love of my life became my sister !
And That's How both of Our Lives Changes forever......




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Pain was all I felt when I woke up the next day.. I have wished it was all a dream but it wasn't ! It was Real no dream or nightmare.. Pure reality that made me cringe, made me hate myself even more just the fact that I once dated my brother not just that but that we met in a party!!

It was a terrible fact that I had to live with, I never knew why my father married yazeed's Mother !
If he wanted a new Life for me why would he make me live with my ex boyfriend or my ex fiancé.. I needed to know things from my father's Point of view!
Part of me down there believed that my father was a nice person that he just wanted what's best for me.. that he Actually Loved me!
But there was so many things in my life that I needed to Solve .. I now remember half of my past , the rest is still unknown the fact that I was friends with joud and felwa.. The fact that I was probably horrible no Actually I was Horrible still !
I probably had so many boyfriends or probably even do stuff like smoke.. I really hated myself Knowing that I could've done anything wrong.. I got up heading to the bathroom staring at my reflection in the mirror suddenly this voice in my mind was saying that I don't deserve to live, that everything I've done was hurting everybody!

I mean my father, my mother allah yr7mha , my step brothers I keep getting into fights with waleed and he probably hates me!
Everyone does unknown,Fares,felwa,joud,my father and the rest of the list all the people I've met hates me!!

I was So angry at myself I couldn't stare at my reflection anymore so I held my fist high and broke the glass making it shatter everywhere.. I took one of the big pieces I was wearing shorts so I started cutting myself The glass went it was extremely pain full but felt Great cause I deserved every bit of it !!

I cut the word *ugly* cause I was one, I wanted to cut more but someone was knocking on the door so I had to Stop yelling "meen" when sadly abdallah answered!

" Just a minute " I said wrapping the towel around me waist throwing all the tissues that were filled with blood in the garbage.. Opening the door making sure that he couldn't see The broken glass!

"Hey beautiful" he said with this huge stupid grin on his face .. What's up with him I thought seriously gross!!

" What?! " I snapped at him harshly gazing at him

" Don't you want to get out have some fun"

" No I believe I'm fine so can you now leave I want to take a shower" I faked a smile closing the door when his hand stopped me from closing it

" What do you want , I'm really not in the mood for your stupid games abdallah"

" Fine then I'm just going to stay here if you don't agree to go out with me" he got in whilst crossing his arms over his chest with this stupid grin on his face until he realised that the mirror was broken into pieces that's when his grin turned into a Frown " what happened "

" Oh nothing I accidentally hit the Glass and it broke " I faked another smile heading towards him
" So can you now please leave "

" Oh nope not until you agree on going out for dinner it's on me"

" No "

" Come on theres no food and im hungry and I won't leave until you Say yes " he smiled

" No "

"Yes" he said " no " "yes " he said and it went on and on until he tricked me by saying " no " which made me say Yes!

" Finally can't wait "he said getting up and leaving the bathroom ,I thought it Was gross I was actually pissed off!

I locked the door getting into the shower relaxing my muscles and clearing my mind for a bit!

Side Note:

Guys just because I wrote about seeta Self harming herself that doesn't mean that Self harming is the answer it never was and never will be the answer!
If you self harm yourself because of a bully will it stop the bully from bullying you? It Won't you will be the only one who would get hurt !
Especially cyberbullies they always manage to just send hate and they are probably just Scared to actually face you so He/she sits behind a Screen and starts sending hate then what do the girl that gets bullied does !
She self harms herself but not only that She gets Really depressed from that fact and actually thinks for an example that she's Ugly / stupid or
Doesn't even deserves to Live!

for people who think that cyberbullying is Actually a joke or they're just bored and start entertaining their selves by sending insults and hate to that person Well ITS NOT!!
If you're bored you can Go watch a movie or tv or something not get it all out on A poor girl!!

I sometimes get hate and I actually get Depressed!
When I get hate and people telling me to close my blog and that my writing is bad, I really take it seriously knowing that someone hates my blog and thinks its Stupid ... I start saying why don't I just close it , it is Stupid but No someone once told me that don't get hate get to you you should chase your dreams and that's why you should all do that too ! Ignore them like they never actually told you anything!
3la goolthm d5li mn i4n 6al3i mn eli4n
Elthania !

But I'm probably sure that none of my readers are bullies because they know how it feels to get bullied like how unknown is bullying seeta!
And If you get bullied stay strong never let anyone get to you and never self harm yourself its never the answer to your question but you know what is the answer to this question? Praying , reading Quran !!
And guys if you need any help know that I'm always Here on twitter : @blogger6777 3 7's not 2 Lol!
Or on ask http://ask.fm/thedevilandme
Don't be shy scared I am going to help you and I won't judge You promise xx

Now back to the story!

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I finished showering and wore some pants so I could hide the cutting that I've done!!
And a black blouse.. I'd always wear t-shirts and sweat pants stuff like that never been a girl of dresses , skirts or maybe I've been wearing dresses and skirts once in the past!
But the fact that a lot of things happened I don't know about freaks me out!
I mean how I was friends with felwa & joud , how we stopped talking!
What was happening !

Those questions were running through my mind but I just had to except all of that!

I Took my marc jacobs cross bags that had my phones I never used my blackberry that yazeed got me I don't know whyy it was just placed there until today I opened it to find a couple of bbm messages !

I didn't have a lot of contacts only yazeed , waleed , hamad and yara I don't even know why she still didn't delete me!

I opened hamad's

Hamad : Hello beautiful
5 months ago

Hamad : are you there will I miss you so much !!
Also 5 months ago

Hamad : akeed you don't use your blackberry I lovee youu
5 months ago

Hamad : everytime I try to call you its off
4 months ago

Hamad : called yazeed and he told me your fine almost got a heart attack when you weren't answering!
2 months ago

Hamad : you should really answer eshtigt lk 9dg!!
1 week ago

Hamad : uff madri meta you grow up and we would finally get married!!!
1 week ago

Omg I can't! it was great ,feeling wanted and loved .. He was probably the sweetest cutest person Alive, he would always make me feel special by being me and I wouldn't have asked for a better husband!!
I quicklyy answered

9eeta: Sorryy I actually never Used my blackberry and here is my new number ******

As I was looking at the other messages yazeed sent me stuff like come down he never knew I actually never used it!

Waleed : Seeta bnt
3 days ago

Waleed : elmhm knt bagoolk eni asif 9dg ma kan ga9di bs a5af 3leek w ana el7een on my way to LA , don't tell anyone they know nothing
3 days ago

I quickly called him .. Kept calling until he picked up finally!

....: alo

Me : waleed are you serious how can you go without telling anyone

....: Go where

Wait that isn't waleed!

Me : who are you?

....: seeta come down its abdallah

Me : what's waleed's phone doing with you

Abdallah: its mine

Me : oh okay ill be right there

Closing the line as fast as I could thinking but waleed once called me from this phone and I called him once but abdallah picked up telling me that it was waleed's Phone when he told me he loved me !
It was extremely bad having unknown hold that fake conversation against me for months!

I checked the rest of the messages I was shocked at Yara's messages

Yara: I'm coming to California can't wait to see you although we will meet!

Yara: I don't understand why you were so mean to me I mean I just wanted to start over

Me : stop it , stop the act

Yara : what act I'm not acting anything I really like you

Me: well I don't bye

Yara: fine ill stop the act but you're going to do as I say or you know what will happen
She said shocking me creeping me out .. Ma Ykfi unknown , my stomach twisted.. My heart beats increased I knew that yara was as horrible as unknown was but she was worse because she was a girl she knew how to use my secrets against me , she also knew my weakest point Hamad!!

Me : or what
I said I was scared but I had to show her that I actually wasn't

Yara: well you know ill go tell Hamad about your dirty past he wouldn't want you as a wife!

Me: What do you want?

Yara : that's the Seeta I love now Go tell him yourself about your past